The Lake

 

went to the lake tonight.

so quiet. 

Pain

ive never really gotten used to the feeling of my heartstrings being torn to shreds.

Drinking again

    Drunk again, drunk and high again. I can't escape this cycle, sober life is too hard, it's too scary. I can't handle not being under the influence anymore. Life is so painful and full of heartbreak and cancer and all that fucking shit. Don't know what I'm going to do, I really don't anymore. I dream of death but even at that, I'm a failure.