Visceral

Visceral - 2024

                                            Was I ever anything more than a convenience?

                                            Who knows, probably not worth thinking about.

Health Update

    Went to get a check up today, turns out I have high blood pressure. I kind of suspected so from my various headaches and such. Doc also wants to put me on Prozac, I fucking hated Zoloft last time I was on that but maybe this med will be different. I'm willing to give it a shot at least, anxiety has been non stop kicking my ass since forever and I just want to feel fucking normal for once lol. 

Another Day

    Another day, another opportunity to feel like shit over nothing. I'm really going to try not to doom too much today though, I already whined enough yesterday. It is 6:38 pm at the time of me writing this and I don't know what to do with the rest of my day really. Kind of just waiting for her to wake up... Maybe she's right, maybe I don't have a fucking life lmao. 

Joever

 WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS RIVAL BATTLE

Balancing Act

    Feels like I'm walking on a tight rope with my emotions every day. Wish I didn't have to feel at all. Wish I wasn't human anymore.

As It Were

    Too much to do today but I don't feel like doing any of it. Would love to just lay in bed and sleep all day except my bed has felt extremely uncomfortable lately. Could barely get any sleep last night either. I guess all I can really do is shit or get off the pot at this point. Fuck my stupid life lol.

Goodnight

    Laying here in bed off 9.5 abv beer and an edible. The night closed itself a bit earlier than I was expecting, but whatever. Hope she's sleeping comfortably in bed, and I hope she doesn't wake up with a hangover tomorrow. Life's changing so rapidly, I don't know what's going on anymore. Guess I'll just close my eyes and see where tomorrow takes me. Goodnight.

Last year

In the semi truck

Took this sometime last year. I think I was in Washington at the time, maybe Oregon.

Purgatory

Purgatory - 2024

Today's a new day

Tartarus

Tartarus - 2024

    Forgot what it felt like to feel this pathetic, it's always the same cycle of bullshit in my life. Feels like I'm on top of the world until something knocks me down a peg and then it's like the end of the fucking world. All I can do is ride out this nightmare until I feel good again, rinse and repeat.

Tatsumaki

Tatsumaki - 2024

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