I think as long as I continue to keep her within my realm of existence I'm just gonna continue to be absolutely fucking miserable. So close yet so far away, every time I notice her it's like I'm being mocked heavily by the universe. I wish I could just let go, I wish I could just forget, I wish I could just exist without her constantly on my fucking mind. I wish I had the strength to just block her on everything, a complete reset, forget everything that happened between us and move on.