Something in me wants to cry, but the tears won't flow.
Daily Life Of A Nicotine Addicted Sleep Deprived Loser
Wednesday, August 13, 2025
Friday, August 1, 2025
You'll probably never read this, and that's ok.
Friday, July 25, 2025
Memories
I don't know why, but I always get these flashbacks to 2014. They aren't bad flashbacks, just a glimpse in the past really. I remember sitting at my desktop late at night watching Space Dandy on Adult Swim, It was a Friday night if I recall. I remember really getting into mushroom pizza at the time, so my father ordered my brother and I some pizza hut. I remember playing fallout 2, eating pizza, watching TV, just existing in the moment. I think I was really coming into my own at that time, that summer. At least the basis of what I am now, for better or for worse.
Regardless, I look back on it fondly.
It was a nice summer.
Friday, July 4, 2025
Post-Mortem
I've been trying hard to not let that twinge of the past eat at me, and for the most part I've been successful. I've been making strides towards the future, towards myself, towards a new life... yet it lingers.
Friday, May 9, 2025
Strangers In The Night
May showers bring may flowers. May showers also bring on more of the sweet, sweet melancholy I continue to writhe and drown in. Jobless, running out of money, I've really fallen off the beaten path haven't I? It's been nice lazing around certainly, I really had forgotten just how great it was to be a lay about. That being said, I need to make a quick turn around or I'm screwed. Not like I haven't dug myself out of a billion holes in the past but alas. Six more months to go, six more months to make a decision. Should I stay or should I go? I don't know, I don't think I'll ever know really. I either carve out my niche here or rot back home in Texas, and at this point the latter sounds so, so tempting. The games changed for good, I'm all I have really.
I regret everything.