Is that pathetic of me, to not want to feel like an afterthought. Maybe I deserve to be an afterthought, hell I probably deserve to not be a thought at all to you, after every thing that's happened between us. I'll never be able to accept it of course, so I'll just be a burden, a cross to bear, for everyone that's had the misfortune of having me in their life. I'm trapped in this hell of my own creation, I'm sorry for ever having involved you in it.